I know I know, I constantly
write about growing and getting better and becoming more than I am now. I write
these posts because that topic will never grow old. It's important to never
stop, to stay in motion your whole life. What that means concretely? I have no
clue. I mean I don't even know about the person I'll be in a year’s time, how
am I supposed to define personal change? That's not possible; all I can write
about is hypothesis of possibility.
A lot of people see the New
Year as a new beginning; they make goals and imagine what could happen in the
next 365 days of this year. I kind of dislike this habit due to various reasons, one
standing out especially. I think what you imagine your year to be in the first
place will most of the time not correspondent with what has been going on the
whole year round and that's just fine. How boring would life be if you could
see the future? On the other hand marking where you are in the beginning of
January and then looking at what you became by December seems useful in order
to keep track of your changing self. Settling affairs in your mind and then
getting them done feels quite brilliant.
Anyways, here comes
the reason why I'm not very fond of New Year’s resolutions. I remember back
when I was about 14 years old we were told to write down some goals and put the
result in an envelope. We were supposed to get them back by the end of the
year, but surprisingly (*cough* Ilovemyunorganizedchurch *cough*) we only
received them again a year and something late. So as a then sixteen year old I
looked at my resolution and allowed myself a little laugh. If I had followed
them I would've dropped out of high school as one of them was to choose math as
a main subject. I mean I've got some talents, but maths definitely isn't one of
them.
Ever since I banned myself
from making yearly goals, because my imagination isn't capable to
understand what is possible in a year. This year however I was
once again told to draft some possible outcomes and to be honest I'm not the
person to leave a blank. On the other hand I know that writing down very
specific thoughts would not help me in any way. So here it is, my resolution
for 2014 is: to be like the lion from "the wizard of Oz".
That sounds like a perfect
plan. I mean I'm not even that much familiar with this story, I know most of
what I do from watching a certain episode of "Futurama" and reading
the Wikipedia article. You see I’m very well educated by TV and internet. What
I know is that the lion didn't have any courage and that he developed
throughout the story. I like it because it's a literature based goal, also it's
not very specific. At least it tackles one of my biggest fears, being afraid
itself. In case you wonder, yes I'm so deep and philosophical that I'm scared
of being scared. Oh the irony.
There are an awful lot of
scary and most of all challenging thing that might cross my path this year but
I'll throw myself into the battle once more, trying to have some actual
character growth, just like the lion does, so maybe in the end I might have
more of a lioness than of the gazelle I resemble right now. I think that's a
good goal for everybody.
Also what I'd like to
emphasize is the importance of being persistent. I'm working on myself and that
takes time, so to continue writing about it shows that I keep it in mind constantly.
It actually probably never gets old, every once in a while I will tell myself
to talk about it over and over again. The process never stops.
And before I forget, I'm also
trying to get back into some sort of schedule. In my head there are so many
good ideas, but such a lack of words. Not a very good thing for a blogger, yet
something I can overcome. So see you soon, promise!
Cheerio.
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